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Losing Focus

At the start of every year there is an influx of people signing up for gym memberships. Driving home after work you can see lots of people in brightly colored trainers jogging or walking. This is all very normal during the first couple of weeks of the year. As we approach the end of February though, less and fewer people are on the roads sweating their asses off. This too is very normal.

I am no exception to the norm either. My one and only goal for the year is to lose enough weight to get my BMI to a healthy status (around 90 kilograms). I woke up early in the mornings to skip, I ate a fruit each morning, I tried to cut down on my coffee  and sugar in take and I was drinking at least two and a half liters of water a day. Today I don’t do any of that. I don’t wake up early, I don’t skip anymore, I eat fruit now and then, I drink at least three cups of coffee a day and I hardly drink more than a liter of water a day. No wonder my weight is stuck at 110 kilograms lately.

The wheels started coming off around the time my knee started paining. This was about two to three weeks ago. I stopped skipping because I didn’t want to aggravate my knee and risk further injuring my knee. This was also around the time that school started. I work full-time and study part-time. Some nights I only get home around ten PM which leaves me with barely two hours to enjoy my wife’s cooking and catch up on the happenings of the day with my wife.

I’d be lucky to be asleep by midnight, so most nights I only get about six hours sleep. If I’d like to skip in the mornings I’d have to cut my sleeping time even shorter. I feel like a zombie in autopilot mode most mornings. It’s challenging to give 100% at work because I’m just too damn tired. That’s I just knock back those cups of java like it’s going out of fashion.

I do realize at this point I am only making up excuses and offering no solutions. There are people out there who manage to lose weight even with a full-time job, part-time studies and minor injuries. Waking up early and exercising is supposed to boost your energy levels and give you what you need to make it through the day. I’m just being a lazy couch potato.

This is however my last intense semester and my intense I mean I usually have five subjects per semester but this semester I have six. Next semester I will only have three subjects, of which two subjects should be a walk in the park. The next two months is going to be hectic because I’ll have to do no less than ten assignments and write no less than ten tests. With so many assessments on my plate stress would inevitably start creeping in and trying to stick to an exercise plan and diet with so much stress will be next to impossible.

Maybe for March and April I need to shift my focus to my studies to make sure I don’t lose my 100% pass rate. This doesn’t mean I should stress eat and gain a lot of weight that would make it even harder for me to meet my goal this year. All this means perhaps is that I have to keep my weight stable, but I still hope to find a way to balance it all.

Until next time. Thanks for reading.

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