stress

Losing Focus

At the start of every year there is an influx of people signing up for gym memberships. Driving home after work you can see lots of people in brightly colored trainers jogging or walking. This is all very normal during the first couple of weeks of the year. As we approach the end of February though, less and fewer people are on the roads sweating their asses off. This too is very normal.

I am no exception to the norm either. My one and only goal for the year is to lose enough weight to get my BMI to a healthy status (around 90 kilograms). I woke up early in the mornings to skip, I ate a fruit each morning, I tried to cut down on my coffee  and sugar in take and I was drinking at least two and a half liters of water a day. Today I don’t do any of that. I don’t wake up early, I don’t skip anymore, I eat fruit now and then, I drink at least three cups of coffee a day and I hardly drink more than a liter of water a day. No wonder my weight is stuck at 110 kilograms lately.

The wheels started coming off around the time my knee started paining. This was about two to three weeks ago. I stopped skipping because I didn’t want to aggravate my knee and risk further injuring my knee. This was also around the time that school started. I work full-time and study part-time. Some nights I only get home around ten PM which leaves me with barely two hours to enjoy my wife’s cooking and catch up on the happenings of the day with my wife.

I’d be lucky to be asleep by midnight, so most nights I only get about six hours sleep. If I’d like to skip in the mornings I’d have to cut my sleeping time even shorter. I feel like a zombie in autopilot mode most mornings. It’s challenging to give 100% at work because I’m just too damn tired. That’s I just knock back those cups of java like it’s going out of fashion.

I do realize at this point I am only making up excuses and offering no solutions. There are people out there who manage to lose weight even with a full-time job, part-time studies and minor injuries. Waking up early and exercising is supposed to boost your energy levels and give you what you need to make it through the day. I’m just being a lazy couch potato.

This is however my last intense semester and my intense I mean I usually have five subjects per semester but this semester I have six. Next semester I will only have three subjects, of which two subjects should be a walk in the park. The next two months is going to be hectic because I’ll have to do no less than ten assignments and write no less than ten tests. With so many assessments on my plate stress would inevitably start creeping in and trying to stick to an exercise plan and diet with so much stress will be next to impossible.

Maybe for March and April I need to shift my focus to my studies to make sure I don’t lose my 100% pass rate. This doesn’t mean I should stress eat and gain a lot of weight that would make it even harder for me to meet my goal this year. All this means perhaps is that I have to keep my weight stable, but I still hope to find a way to balance it all.

Until next time. Thanks for reading.

Still surviving

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Holding on

I am not dead from being overworked yet. I’m still in the trenches but its not as bad as previously thought.

I just got a couple of tests back and the results look good. I might get through this semester without failing any subjects.

I also wrote a few tests this past week and it wasn’t that bad. I might just pass all of them and I also submitted a couple assignments that I feel very confident about.

Work still sucks though. Last week I had possibly the worst week I’ve ever had at a work place and this week I’m drowning in work even though I’ve been working as hard as I can to get things done, more things just get added to the list.

My finances look good even though I couldn’t give an update on March and Q1 of 2016 yet. My wife is even drawing up excel spreadsheet budgets now even though she was opposed to the idea at the beginning of our marriage.

I’m also looking forward to the weekend. I’m having my friends over. They haven’t been over at my place since I got married. Gonna have to entertain them and show them there is nothing to be afraid of at my place, they are always welcome to come visit.

Well, that’s me for now. I hope the next two weeks can only get better.

Until next time. Thanks for reading.

Stress

Good Morning. Let the stress begin...

Stress

The last week or so have been an absolute nightmare. Work just seems to get worse and worse everyday and I am slowly starting to regret moving there for the new pay increase.

The work load is immense. So immense that the managing director noted this and told the rest of the office to drop everything their doing and help me with my work. It helped a little but I am still under a lot of pressure. Today there was a light at the end of the title. Someone has been appointed to aid me permanently. Things seem to be looking better but I don’t think I will feel the workload getting lighter now. It may take up to a month. The new credit clerk needs to be trained and must get to know the ways before I start feeling the effect of her work.

Unfortunately because of the stress at work everything else in my life took a back seat, especially my finances. I stopped recording transactions. I went out for beers more often. I ate take out more often. I stopped making lunch and eating breakfast at home. I was just not following my normal routines. I was properly depressed. The days I didn’t go out drinking, I just came home and got into bed.

To this day while I am typing up this blog post I still haven’t updated my budget for August or September. I recorded all my debit card purchases but nothing about cash over the past two weeks. I feel like I am drowning and I cannot come up for air. I want to finish it, I really do, but work just takes out so much of me that I have no energy to do anything when I get home. It doesn’t look like I will make all the goals I’ve set at the beginning of the year and at June. My first three months at this job has been stressful.

I can only hope that this will shape me and turn me into a stronger person. I hope that things will become better over time. If I don’t see an improvement by the end of October, I will start looking for work elsewhere. Even if I have to take a pay cut. The money is not worth all the stress.

Mo’ Money, Mo’ Problems

Mo’ money, mo’ problems

Dear readers

It’s been awhile since I posted anything on my blog. I just started the new job and it has been insane to say the least. I have to do the job of 3 people. My boss is fully aware of this and is trying to hire someone to assist me. They didn’t think that two people were needed for my job, but in the past, before the company bought over, there were two people doing this job. I just can’t understand why they decided to only recruit one.
Also with the new takeover, the company installed new computer software that the old workers don’t understand and weren’t trained to use. Why would anyone install new software and not train their employees is beyond me. Everyday I am either reporting an issue or trying to fix it. I already have so much to do, now I still have to fix errors.
So I have had a rough time at work over the past month and a half. When I get home I go straight to bed and pray tomorrow will go better, but no matter how hard I work, the work load doesn’t seem to get any less. It just gets more with each passing day. The new guy needs to start soon so I just have some breathing room and time to relax.
As for my finances. I’ve managed it well. I spend much less on food nowadays. I only have take out on Fridays but take lunch to work on Mondays to Thursdays. It’s usually a sandwich. Sometimes it would be leftovers from the night before. I have cereal in the mornings and take a fruit with me. I use to take two fruit, a banana and an orange. I noticed that most times I didn’t eat the orange and the oranges would just go off. So now I am just sticking to bananas. I also bought a big bag of chips (50x 20g packets). I took a packet of chips along each day, but now I’ve switched to yogurt.
I still can’t bring my entertainment budget under control. I just don’t have the discipline to say no to my friends when they go out and have a couple of beers at a bar. I also buy myself a beer now and then when I’ve had a rough day at work which seems to be a lot lately. I have a TV and an Xbox at home. I’ve tried to invest in games so that I don’t go out so often. I just need to try that more often.
So a big plus on the food side but a big negative with the entertainment. Overall I am happy with my finances. I think recording every single transaction is a habit now. I never thought I could do it, its four months now and I haven’t missed one transaction. New habits can be learned. Habits I am working on now is taking lunch to work everyday and making sure everything is in order at night for the next day. I hate going to work in rush because I did not prepare for the day properly.
I also want to start jogging. See how that goes. I am slowing starting to become overweight. My belly is way too big for my liking. But I will start slow. I read an article of not having zero days. So even if I just go for a walk or do a couple of push-ups, I shouldn’t skip a day of exercise. If I can keep it going for 90 days, I’m sure it will be a new habit as well.
Well, thanks for reading. I have to catch up on some reading myself. I’m hoping next month will be better than the last.